I guess this time is one of the lowest point of my life. I kind a feel my spirit has dropped into zero after all those serial of episodes over this past few weeks. I don't know, think I already did all my best effort, but eventually I feel like only keep everyone unhappy. I start to loose my appetite at work. Even I can only say 'yes' every time assignments is given without giving any opinion or argument just like I used to be.
The miserable feeling starts, reaching over other parts of my life with memories of failure, rejection and fear. Well, I'm such a drama queen perhaps. You now it is like after got hit in left hand, the pain will start reaching the head and all over part of the body.
Well, bad things happen in life. And I do hope that I don't start to loose my self. I just need to keep my feet standing strong through this rainy days. Perhaps..keeping myself around family and friends is one of the best cure of all. =)
Well , yeah..what can I say, today is my birthday. Hehe.. Just another birthday, a simple one like another birthday of mine. Nothing's big..but it always gives me a big 'thing'.
I woke up at 11.30 pm last night since I had a bad dream, frankly about this sadistic movie - final destination 4.
Wooff. Plus..the itchy feeling in my right hand because of my allergic.. (well I'm not gonna tell u why here, hehe..). After I got injection from my doctor, I went to bed then
baam! the unexpected dream started. >.<
My sister Mba Engkap had just arrived home at 11 pm something after went out with her soon-to-be boyfriend or..husband! hehe.. There wasn't a cake, she said it was too late at night so she couldn't drop by somewhere to buy me one, u uh! But the funny thing was.. we -including my mom & dad- actually called 14045, ordering some junk food late at night. Haha..it was quite fun anyway, after got 'begah' feeling, well...we went to bed. This my first birthday celebration at the very early morning with family and not-so-good food. hehe.. Luv my family laahh.. ^^
In the morning, I went to work, got some expression from my colleagues. But then..a lot of tasks waiting for me. Hehe..thank God in no matter what condition, i still love my job. We have several projects running at the same time which need careful attention. Hectic, um..but I do like it. I actually spend some time to response birthday wishes in fb & hp, which keeping me busy as well, hehe.. I & Ay (my best friend at work) eventually got to know also with the girl next door, we had lunch together. Haha..finally..new friend. =)
After went home at noon, my mom actually made some dishes including 'nasi kuning' & 'lauk-pauk'. My sister also had bought birthday cake for me, but too bad she's already left since she got to go back to Belitung, continuing her undertaking. After Yasinan together (our family habit every Thursday night), we had a little pray from my dad with, well..we did also standard procedure in every birthday moment: candle & cake. Just a simple & warm festivity with a few family & relatives.
Well..I'd like to keep my birthday moment simple & quiet. Hehe..that's why there's no big celebration almost in every year. About the birthday wishes, well..I actually don't have a specific one at the moment. I'm kind a overwhelmed with what God has already given to me. All I could say is..thank u Allah for everything.. please guide me in every step I take.
Amin..
Well..lately some people from the past, either old friends or family, suddenly showed up in my life. Some of them were so special. It is kind a funny, thinking about this very unexpected moment at a glimpse. I'd never thought that this is all gonna be like this.
Sometimes I'd like to ask God, what kind of learn that I could take from this? Well..I think I know a little: I'm seeing my self grow up, something that I could never really think about deeply. We are all grown up people now, so we meet by chance in some point of life where we can understand every experiences we have better and better.
I realize now that I've changed. People change also, people do change. We all change. And I do really wish that I continuously change to be better human being..
Just want to share a little bit about my last couple of days..
Saturday (4/9): Sahur on the road with BZ. It is actually not on the road, because we visited one of the slum area in Jakarta, having cooperation with 'Remaja Musholla' there. I was shocked because I'd never think that such area really exist in the downtown. Just right at the back of Wisma Mulia - Menara Jamsostek at Gatot Subroto main street! We'd finally shared meal door to door, witnessed the reality of Jakarta. Such a great lesson to me, seeing a girl & her mother sharing their life in 2x2 m room.. Thinking that I should've contribute more in the future.. ;( Anyway, we also had a 'quality' conversation in the early morning, which I believe this kind of thing could enrich my life. Love it! =)
Sunday (5/9): Family & friends gathering. Even though my 2 big sisters not in the Jakarta at the moment, I've succeeded gather their closest friends (also my friends) & my family in such a warm breakfasting moment. It was so fun! The girls also had some bridesmaid conversations since Mba Dian will get married soon, hehe... I'm gonna be her bridesmaid because Mba Ai will still in Aussie at her big day. Thank u all: Ibu, Bapak, Mba Ade, Mba Dian & her fiance, Ido, Mba Ine, Waskito, Cici & Ivan. I actually invited also my two closest girl friends Devi & Fiska, but too bad they couldn't come for some reasons. =)
Today (8/9): I met my previous company's managing director at unexpected moment (well..he's actually already moved also), having him in such a warm greeting & little chit chat moment. What a great personality & aura he has. Very much inspiring & giving me some spirit to be a better person in every way. I was also having terawih in diknas mosque Senayan, meeting some of my good friends there and having dinner together. Well..today is a nice day! =)
Ok, here's the thing. Well..actually in these last couple of weeks, I had my spirit broken down into pieces. It is so easy complaining about everything. But here, after rambling my own stories, all I could say is thank you Allah for giving me so many good things in life: a great family, friends and having myself experience so many wonderful things even the simplest one. I couldn't even ask for more..
Well..I think about this lately. Sometimes you just have to feel what you feel, not to think about what you feel. Just let the life lead and in the end soon you will find the answers..
Setelah bersih-bersih di rumah si Bapak, kira2 jam 2 siang kita balik ke terminal Pangandaran, dianter juga (tetep pake pick up, hehe..). Ada tambahan biaya Rp 10,000/org secara jauh juga. Akhirnya kita putusin untuk ke pantai Pangandaran dulu sebentar...secara Inuk niat banget bikin temporary tato, dan di Batu Karas nyariin ga ketemu. Akhirnya kesampean juga, hehe.. (padahal yg lain kayaknya agak bt tu ;p). Adit, Pras & Futty sempet juga sewa main sepeda sebentar disana (Rp 5,000/jam).
Jam 6 sore kita langsung menuju ke terminal Pangandaran, jam 7 ada bus Perkasa Jaya yang langsung sampe ke terminal Kp. Rambutan (@ Rp 60,000). Bisnya gak terlalu bagus, tp lumayan lah..AC dan yang pasti Alhamdulillah...kita dapet duduk semua, hehe... Finally..sampe Jakarta jam 3 pagi aja lohhh....berarti itu dah hari Senin (17/8) tepat hari kemerderkaan Indonesia ke 64. Medekaa!! Indonesia: I love u full!! ^^
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Begitulah, sekilas perjalanan pertama backpacking Inuk. Walaupun cuma share ulang aja dari yang udah-udah, tapi mudah-mudahan ada manfaatnya. AMin.. Oia, kesan pesannya, walaupun pegel..cape banget..tapi senengnya luar biasa! Nggak heran deh, orang-orang pada ketagihan seni nikmatin hidup yang satu ini. Kedepannya si Inuk pengen lebih sering pergi-pergi begini, tapi yah..teteup..menyesuaikan lagi sama budget & waktu, hehe..
Oia terakhir, buat Adit, Futty, Pras & Icha...Thanks a lot yaa...!!! :)
Next stop........ (masih bingung mau kemana, hehe..). Check your belongings and step carefully. Thank u! ^^
Besoknya hari Minggu (17/8) kita baru menuju ke Green Canyon. Kita ambil paket body rafting gitu, agak berbeda sama kalo orang dateng kebanyakan yang lewat jalur luar, kita menyusuri sungai sepanjang kira-kira 4 km menuju Green Canyonnya. Paku pelampung doang aja looohh!! Tapi seru...
Dijemput jam 9 pagi sama providernya (Pak Syariffudin: 0852 2317 3821), naik pick up L300 boo..menuju rumahnya, disana ada satu rombongan (sekitar 8 org) lagi yang akan body rafting barengan sama kita. Dari situ kita rame naik tuh pick up lagi ke ujung sungainya, boo...jalannya berbatu naik turun bukit jauh juga. Sampe-sampe juga bukan langsung nyebur, masih harus turun2 lewat jalan yg lumayan curam sekitar 300m kebawah. Sampe suara sungainya kedengeran baru dehhh...sampe.
Ada sekitar 4 guide yang mendampingi kita. Mulai nyebur di sungai kita berenang aja terus, itu sekitar jam 10. Mereka nanti kasih tau kita harus lewat arus mana yg ga berbahaya, kadang kita harus minggir dulu naik bebatuan. Subhanallah..mulai dari sini pemandangannya keren banget!! Airnya hijau..bening..dingin.. Jadi tuh ya, sungainya ada di antara bukit2 hijau tinggi gitu, belum lagi konturnya yang banyak stalaktit & stalagmitnya, mantapp! Feels like heaven. Setengah perjalanan kita sempet berhenti dulu untuk istirahat, sempet foto-foto juga. Seru banget! enaknya lagi, karena kita jalurnya berlawanan sama pengunjung biasa, jadi bener-bener sepi & rasanya eksklusif sendiri, hehe.. Di jalur ini, kalo dirasa aman kita juga boleh loncat agak tinggi dari batu-batu di sungai itu.
Setelah kira-kira 3 jam, baru kita mulai ke wilayah Green Canyonnya. Subhanallah..disini juga keren banget juga! Sungainya mulai memasuki dalam gua gitu. Mulai disinilah tanda-tanda kehidupan ada, mulai ketemu pengunjung lain yang dateng dari arah berlawanan. Banyak juga yang berenang gitu. Kita mahh...udah basah kuyup parah sampe sini, hehe... Disini ada batu yang lumayan tinggi banget, kayaknya setinggi atap rumah 2 lantai, dan Inuk sama beberapa temen lain loncat aja looohh...ke air dibawahnya. Huaaaa!!! hihihi...kalo inget, Inuk aja heran kok berani ya kemarin. Padahal itu juga udah ketakutan setengah mati. Abis...moment-nya sayang aja kalo dilewatin begitu aja.
Dari situ, kita udah dijemput sama perahu menuju dermaga Green Canyon. Sampe dermaga tinggal jalan & nyebrang aja dikit, langsung sampe ke rumah si Bapak (kira-kira jam 13.30). Disana udah disiapin kelapa muda & makan siang, yummy!! Total biaya body rafting include makan: Rp 600,000/paket ber lima.
Saran: Kalo mau body rafting, jangan lupa booking dulu at least seminggu sebelumnya. Sebaiknya pake pakaian yg nyaman & sendal gunung (daripada nyeker...sakiit..!!), trus kalo ada bawa kamera tahan air. Sayang banget soalnya kalo terlewat begitu aja.=)
Lanjutannya.... (eps. 3)
I guess this time is one of the lowest point of my life. I kind a feel my spirit has dropped into zero after all those serial of episodes over this past few weeks. I don't know, think I already did all my best effort, but eventually I feel like only keep everyone unhappy. I start to loose my appetite at work. Even I can only say 'yes' every time assignments is given without giving any opinion or argument just like I used to be.
